July 2010
i want..
a pet! :[ a kitten, or a pup or even a bunny! I want a petttt.
“If you don’t love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an amen?!”
—RuPaul
“Im starting to notice that im not meant to have any peace of mine or happiness for long periods of time. the shred of happiness i do have is cause of you babe.”
—josh
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
—Marley.
oh marley.
You know whatsup.
meh.
Promise to be exact and answer this survey truthfully?
sure..
Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a girl?
I think so.
Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 days?
Yes.
What’s your current mood?
BORED. Isolated.
Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
Yes.
Do you own a digital camera?
Yeahh
Do you think you are a good person?
For the most part. But not completely.
Are all of your friends virgins?
No. Not alll of them.
Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
Yes.
Do you have a Hummer?
I do not.
What is your natural hair color?
Brown.
Do people ever spell your name wrong?
Sometimes.
Would you rather have roommates or live alone?Alone probably.
Does anyone know your password beside you?
Noo.
Do you look like your siblings?
Not really. I dont think so at least.
How often do you say ‘lol’ in a computer or text convo?
More than i need to.
If you had the chance to move to a completely different state, would you?
Maybe. :/
Is there girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?
Yes.
Are you unsure about your feelings for someone?
No.
What are you doing tomorrow?
I dont even knoww.
Do you have a nickname?
Yes. >:/Nickle.Nature.Nipple. Lol.Damn you guys.
Is there anyone you talked to today that you’d consider having sex with?
No.. He hasnt gotten up yet.
How many piercings have you had in your life?
In my lifeee.. seven..
What were you doing at 2am?
Texting josh and doing laundry.
Who else is in the room with you?
No one.
Does the person you have feelings for, know?
sure does..
Were you happier now or three months ago?
INow.
Have you smiled recently?Yes.
Be honest, are you starting to gain feelings towards anyone?
I gain more feelings for him errday.
When you cry, do your eyes change color?
No. I dont think so.
How many tattoos would you get?Im not sure.
Are you missing anyone/something?
yess.
How many people do you 100% trust?
None.
Will you cry tonight?
I doubt it.
Does anything on your body hurt right now?
My back. Like my shoulders. I need a massage :(
Has anyone told you they loved you today?
Noo.
Do you like falling asleep listening to rain?
Sure. I love rain.
What is your hair looking like right now?
Up and messy..
Ever been called babe/baby?Everyday..
You never know what you’ve got until you lose it? True or false?
True.. sure.
Can you read other people’s expressions?
Sometimes..
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
Mom
Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
Happy.
Is your life falling apart or coming together?
Coming together. Well more so.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Noo.